Reinvention of Self

Welcome Back We've Missed You

2011-02-24T21:03:00.000-08:00

There's not a word greater, than the word HELLO
Then again maybe there is, GOODBYE
In their own contexts
Laying bare without CON-text
I offer you both...

Whitford Crew and G.F.T.D. 1

2010-09-16T20:24:00.000-07:00

Stephen Mayu2

2010-09-16T20:22:00.000-07:00

Stephen Mayu Jr.

2010-09-16T20:21:00.000-07:00

Baptized

2010-09-16T20:04:00.000-07:00

I got baptized and saved today
When it was over I stood and said okay
Walked through fire for far too many days
Feet are like ash, no OIL OF OLAY
Minds been blown
Yeah I’m far from home
Close my eyes and wake in different zones
Thoughts are prehistoric, no change for phone
My spirit it roams, in circles alone
It’s been forever since my body was home
Emotions are gone
My spirit it roams, in circles alone
When the lights are on, that’s when I feel most alone
So I stay quiet and think on my own
Damn, I wish I were home
So I could lay in my room and dream on my own
I can’t call because my heart won’t pick up the phone
It beats on its own
Sometimes my mind tells me that my heart feels so alone
Then I tell my mind to vacate the room
Too much time to consume
The dislike, disdain
The real life, real pain
The lost friends who no longer call my name
The found friends who are in it for gain
You see at times it’s impossible to just maintain
So a kid like me is constantly searching his brain
No longer searching for fame
The chance came and left on the same train
Now I’m trying to contain
All the hurt through the years, that is falling like rain
My umbrella doesn’t matter; these drops keep falling faster and faster
At times I think I’m having an internal natural disaster
So then all I can do to find reprieve
Is fall on my knees and ask God to save me please…

Then I do
Then HE does
Then time starts over just because

Earthshake

2010-01-13T00:33:00.000-08:00

Two cents
Concealed

One intent
To Steal

Slowly driving
Appeal

Two hands
On Wheel

Intersection
Brakes squeal

Across the world
It feels...

It feels as if everything is in its rightful place
And then...

Earth shakes
We feel

Street signs down
No stop
Yield

Poverty creates
A forcefield

Arms are open
No roit
Shield

In the night
We fight
Scream

In the day
We plant
Dream

In the end we stand firm
All the while we should learn

That one day it may be our turn
My two cents used

What have you learned.....

Sight

2009-11-03T02:57:00.000-08:00

Voices slowly whispering songs of today
Mixed with feelings of yesteryear

Short beats mixed with soulful melodies
Which are listened to by aliens whom are able to hear
The chorus of the indigenous and slave

Beaten faces, tethered eyes
That are transfixed on the horizon

The Son is rising from a slumber spoken of millenniums ago
Hands raised towards the heavens
Sky a glow

Voices of the angels
This the greatest show, which has ever been witnessed
By the religious who have lifted their eyes to meet God

In a fog in a haze
In this story we turn the page

To see that chains still bind us
They're here to remind us

That transfixed stares will inevitably lead to blindness
If one never truly times the coming of Lord...

(Don't lose sight of the dream)

This was a tough one...

2009-11-02T23:06:00.000-08:00

Grandpa

The first words off of my fingertips are the words "I miss"
I miss being a child again
I miss Saturday cartoons
I miss Lionel and Snarf
I miss the games like, On My Way To Michigan, I took an "Aardvark, a Buffalo, a Cart"
I miss laying on a concrete slab and learning about the stars
I miss my father pointing to the moon and then in the direction of Mars
I miss thinking that, one day I'd travel there, without a hesitation or a car
I miss the days of bullets ringing so loudly on my block, the gangsta's seemed to be playing "Jingle Bells"
I miss the smell of Christmas
You see being poor allows you to have keen sense of smell
It's crazy to think no one knew that we were trapped in Hell

I miss racing the wind
I miss bugs
I miss learning to sit at the feet of an elder
I miss our first hug
I miss the first time I cried when you said, "Goodbye"
I was only a child

I miss your voice
It's my fault, I never called enough
Your "hello's" still linger around my telephone
I can hear you whisper when I close my eyes

I remember attempting to be so tough
When my father gave me the news, "It may be over soon"
Nothing at all seemed to matter

I miss being a child
I miss freeze tag
I miss double dutch
I miss four square
I miss running, for what seemed like eternity and not having to grasp for air
I miss laying on a concrete slab wondering if I would ever escape
But now these words escape, "I miss" you

Touches, which seemed like yesterday
Are really remnants of years gone by
In the darkness, I sit and cry
In the darkness, I try to fill in the "missing" parts

If time would only allow one touch, three words
I would hold you forever and save my speech
I would grasp you so tightly that the "NOTHING" would allow this to be a "Never Ending Story"

If time were so kind
It would allow us to rewind all the hurt it has caused
It would allow us to pause and insert another ending
Another story line
Ah if only time...

Memories not erased
Your face retraced
Your voice on repeat
My thoughts retreat

To my younger days
No sign of haze
Just your warm smile

I miss being a child
I miss Saturday morning cartoons
I miss He-Man and Gargamel
I miss games like "Simon says, stand still"
I miss laying on a concrete slab and wondering if I'd ever escape
I miss feeling my face as it slowly turned from a child to a man
I miss you holding my hand and telling me you love me....

I miss you!

Beauty

2009-06-14T22:50:00.001-07:00

Today I saw beauty and it was for the very first time
I stood there stuck in silence, no pen, no rhyme
It was just me, her, and time
And oh how time stood still
I could feel the hands on the clock, instantaneously lock, the moment she appeared
All sense of fear was gone
Before I realized, the moon had been replaced by the dawn

You see today I saw beauty and it was for the first time
Her presence simply pulled on my lifeline, confined, and complicated my thoughts
Boxed in, my heart began to sing a song reserved for the newborns
Perhaps it was the feeling of love being reborn
I'm torn between feeling dead and alive
I'm torn between running or learning how to glide through this life

Today your beauty held me still just long enough
I forgot about my aches and my pains
It held me still just long enough, that all thoughts were washed from my brain
The only vision which remains is your beauty
You confuse me with smiles and laughter
I can do nothing but imagine a life, here after the worry passes by
Am I that guy...

The answer is probably no
Because right now you don't even know that I exist, in this mist, in this jungle
I dream of you at night and you faithfully appear and hold me tight
However, when I awake I find no one near
I only hear the tick of the clock in my ear
Reminding me that your beauty has gone.....

Single Story

2009-06-10T00:09:00.000-07:00

I write for just a few
Who knew, that words through windows would bounce back
Who knew, that words put to recording would find tracks
The beauty of it all is the fact that I've learned to circumvent the big and run across the small issues just the same
Lame
Tame
Blame
Ashamed
But not shamed or shameful
Deceit
Retreat
My feet they move faster than my brain can push
Kush
They took
A hook and dropped it at the center of my mind
Find
Kind
Speed up
In order to rewind
Defined but no definition exists
Swing
Miss
Cartoons like Heathcliff
Beats lift
Soul shifts
And now I sift through all that I've known and all that I know to really be true
Coming through
Never knew
Who are you
What did I do to end up here at this point
Double joint
Just two points your foot was on the line
Behind
Confined
My time can't be defined by simple words
Chords
Vice Lords
Using swords to slice up and peel
Conceal
Reveal
My hands are now off of this wheel
About to fall over the edge
Ledge
Tonight I make my final pledge to never write again in such a tight space
Trace
Face
Show me your hand
Damn, you had the King and Ace
Pace
Displaced
Words coupled with meaning allow you to travel to another line
Look at my picture, that light is mine
Close your eyes and the darkness sets in and now you're blind

Image

2009-06-09T23:56:00.000-07:00

I am my fathers son
In the end he and I are one

I am my fathers son
As he smiles, my voice echos in jubilation
It doesn't matter what the situation
Even in humiliation, I can feel his smile

I am my fathers son
My heart waits for beat breaks, which beat then break the clouds away
His beats used to break the same way
His past is now my present today

We've both walked in the light and hidden in the gray
We've both ventured to the top of mountains only to see what the fountain of life holds
Cold, it's all so true
That when one sees me, they inevitably see you, dad, coming through each step, each thought; sometimes I whisper in the dark in order to hear your voice come back to me and tell me that I'm ok

You see, today I realized that I am my fathers son
I sing and hum
He no longer whistles because I never learned to keep a tune
He holds his words and that's what I've learned to do
Crazy, fanatic, I've rolled around and come out with all this static and I can't seem to cling to anything substantial
My father wipes me off, sits me down and then brings the wisdom that I so lack

I can't keep track of time
So my father is there to remind me
I can't see where, I'm headed
So my father is there to help guide me
For how long I don't know
But when I look at the mirror, it's not my face but his image which shows

Snatched...

2009-06-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

Road blocks have been set up in my mind
I type, I think, but I can't seem to transfer these into ink
So I continue to sink deeper into this gridlocked mental traffic

No compassion, no justification
Just the simple realization that my mind has gone off on the run
And had an affair with my thoughts

The reason I know this is because I've been waiting for days now to see her
My thoughts being her that is....

Maker of Thought

2009-06-02T13:52:00.001-07:00

One, two, buckle my shoes
Moving through life like, "Whatcha gonna do"
Moving through life like, "I cannot stomach you"
Caught the flu, about to catch the vapors
Traitors, ultimate penetrators in the cover of the night
It's the light
It can be real if you're traveling by candlelight
It's all so bright
Distraction, distortion
Babies cryin', mothers seeking abortions
Here's the notion
Sex leads to life
Fallin' on my knees, my prayers lead me to Christ
And yours can be Allah, Buddha, or more

I came through the door and saw a dude straight kissin' my girl
Me, I got what you need, but I've always been a friend
And that's what I'll be in the end
Oh baby, just maybe I can figure this out
I'm stuck on this couch, I can't move
I'm about to detonate and I can't find the fuse
In the end, you win and I lose
Choose to stand on one side or another
Choose to allow yourself to rediscover life

Everything is going to be alright, everything is going to be alright now
Take a bow
You're the best supporting actor and the crowd says, "WOW"
How did you do that, where did you go
How much of this real, how much of this is for show
Here's my heart, measure its contents and stamp it best of show
Now you know that I move through dark circles only to bring the light
Now you know that every morning I wake, I pray that I do right

In the still of the night, I held you, I held you tight
You weren't mine and that's for sure
I promise I'll quickly let you go and the you that I speak of is me
And the me that you read are my insecurities indeed
Take heed, stampede the whole world has fallen to their knees don't get trampled
New samples, new disease, new cuts on un-scraped knees

I plant trees, next to seeds, I capture the sun, I fan the breeze
So please join with me....

And teach the young that they can breathe

J. Dilla Tribute ft. The Armen Nalbandian Trio, Ms. Soulflower, and Fashawn

2009-06-02T11:47:00.000-07:00

Lost Planet

2009-02-01T21:45:00.000-08:00

There has been a new forensic find
It was unearthed on the other side of my mind
Hidden away throughout all of my time
No parallels thus no lines
The darkness was vast, its terrain never before traversed
Each step taken was new, there wasn't time for this dance to be rehearsed
A purse was paid
A song was played
There were new memories to be made
But they were all to be made after this find...

I walk alone, I'm looking at you and I tell you that I truly walk alone
The thoughts in my dome, they are mine
The dreams and wishes that I have, these cannot be defined
So you see I myself have been confined
I've been confined to this time, this place, these eyes, this face
The clock on the wall it tick, tocks, tick, tocks

You see today there has been a new forensic find
This find has lead researchers to the back of my mind
The back of my mind is where they find that time has stood still forever
The dinosaurs and early man still roam
The Indian and immigrants both have homes

In the back of my dome they find riches unknown to the everyday man or woMan
It's more like WHOA, man

So now I try to WHOA, men and women alike
So now I try to feed the world the biggest slice of life
I light my thoughts on fire so others can see my light
I'm burning
I'm burning with the desire to take over this place
I'm burning with the desire that soon people will recognize this face
This face of change and want
I want to change, I want others to want
Want to be the best at whatever it is someone is telling you, you can't have, you can't do
I want to tell others simply this
"I'll do me and I'll let you simply do you"

Today there was a new forensic find
Today there was a key found which opened my mind

The looks of black faces, running races so they can finish
One, two, and three
The looks of hope which were once hung on a tree
Before there was thought of you and before there was thought of me

A great man once told me to pray and push
So tonight I pray for no more teachers no more books
No more teacher's dirty looks
Tonight I pray for peace
Tonight I pray that my soul will slay the beast which lays wait on the darkest part of my mind
Tonight I pray that I will push on
Tonight I pray that I will hold on
A new song
I sing

Tonight I pray that silence will silence this thing
This new found find, which sits on the other side of my mind
Quietly waiting for its discover, recovery....

6 Shots

2009-02-01T21:44:00.001-08:00

Tonight all of my dreams have been replaced
Feelings of hate and malice race across my lips
I've been stripped/tripped
But you've forgotten to deliver the last blow
Instead you leave me lying here
And my emotions, begin to die slow

There's no medal or honor that you can win
You, like so many others, smile and pretend
I caught your presence your spirit in the wind
There was a time not too long ago, when I actually considered you to be a friend

But tonight I lay here in the dark
Bleeding, my words are bleeding on these pages
My thoughts have become contaminated with a plague
Now these words seem contagious, it's so outrageous to think
That soon I'll close my eyes and thus begin to sink
Sink into a place where I've been before
A place where the harsh realities of this world won't matter anymore

One is in the chamber and a click away
Two is in the chamber and with a quick prayer I pray
Three is in the chamber with hopes that one and two fail
Four is in the chamber to assure that this pain won't prevail
Five is in the chamber just for no other reason
Six is in the chamber just to prove that my bags were packed and I was set on leaving.....

No need to hang on, this is the end
Broken perhaps but I couldn't bend

Zippo

2009-01-16T16:58:00.001-08:00

I refuse to be abused any longer
There's a sense of hunger, which cries from within
So I feed him with a constant supply of knowledge and wisdom
I'm never losing vision of all around me

Some scream because they think they've found me
Look again

You see my village is under siege so now I seize the chance fight back
I seize the chance to attack the strongholds of the untold men and women who walk around with blindfolds
I seize the chance to attack those who see in only white and black
I'm fighting back
I'm fighting to take over your minds and your color pallets in order to paint a new song
Today you'll find me singing songs of yesteryear which fell on the ears of those who didn't want to sing along

So check it, the question is why are they now singing OUR songs
I sit in a dark room but I can see the light
I can feel its warmth
I can tell it's bright
In the end it's us who walk among the DEAD in the brightness of the night

"Shine your lights ya'll"....

( 1 )

Fashawn, Alchemist, and Evidence

2009-01-07T18:31:00.000-08:00

So I'm not a kid anymore but it was DOPE to be on stage during this particular show! More videos to come...

My Gaza Dream

2009-01-07T18:30:00.000-08:00

Children prayed
Bullets sprayed, in the buildings right up the block
Muslim rocks
Christian knots
Gaza is getting hot

Morning yawns
Dropping bombs, what seem light worlds away
Corporate greed
Nations need, to fight just to stay

Dropping bombs
Crying moms, nowhere to bury their seeds
Awkward cries, babies lay beneath the rubble and debris
A world at loss
No one to toss, a white cloth in to call it quits

Sinking ships
Targeted hits, bullets just learned to fly
Distant glow
No info, we're all being told a lie

Fallen dads
It's all so sad, two more rocks hit the sand
Unarmed man
Holding hands, this is his final stand

Families hug
Pull the plug, this is what we have to do
Gentile or Jew
Whoever knew this what it's all about

Giant hand
Tries to fan, the flames which won't go out
Masses shout
"Is this what it's all about"

On their knees
Countless seeds
Ready to be heard

Spread the word
Shepherd-less heard
Allowed to roam free
Last decree
Can't bother me
A Bush says to the land
Diggin sand
Contra bands
You've ruined our once great land

Atom bombs
Holding on, just a push away
Coming soon
The glorious doom, all sins are washed away

Sit and look
World is shook
Common ground can't be found

You're chasing tails
You're going to fail
The fox says to the hounds

In a flash
Life's final dash
Is ran across the screen

Folding arms
Another bomb, the smoke can't be seen
An evolution
Perhaps revolution is staring us in the face

Warm embrace
Gentle face, I'm sorry but I must go
Rubbing hands
Mixed with sand, I must fight for what I know

Rise and fall
Resurrect the wall
Knocked down
It firmly lies
Two shots ring out
Body drops to its knees

Doubtful

2009-01-05T21:52:00.001-08:00

You didn't want to endorse our team
You said our idea would only be a blip in time you see
So now I'm holding time, you see, right in front of your face so you can see
Without your doubt we wouldn't be able to...
Dream so clearly and fully

Feels Like

2009-01-05T21:50:00.000-08:00

So this is what it feels like
The wind in your face, speed with no brakes
So this is what it feels like
Feeling warm at night, the moon's moonlight
So this is what it feels like
The touch of your skin, let the journey begin
So this is what it feels like
Your voice in the air, the mic is right there
So this is what it feels like
The masses raisin' their hands, two or three grand
So this is what it feels like
The rain in your face, no umbrella to brace
One has to keep runnin' the race at such a frantic pace
Because this is what it feels like
When you come off of the high, you see you're not the same guy
So this is what it feels like
A thousand pairs of eyes reading and wondering why

They never feel like...

Gotta find this on your own
It's a feeling so grown
Please tell me what it feels like....

Not Done Yet

2009-01-05T21:48:00.001-08:00

The ingredients said to just add a little love
So I took a handful and mixed it in
I stirred, stopped, and started again

The ingredients said to add a little self
So I took out the knife and carved a little of me up
Measured it correctly and dropped it in the cup
I stirred, stopped, and started again

The ingredients said to add a little pain
So I grabbed my heart, some thoughts, and past memories which needed to be strained
I squeezed them all together
I stirred, stopped, and started again

The ingredients said to bake these all together
Just then I noticed that the Creator of this dish was all too clever
So I stirred, stopped, and started to perfect myself all over again....

I Thought

2009-01-05T21:44:00.000-08:00

I thought I knew but you guessed it, I don't
I thought we moved to the same groove but we don't
You see, my feelings about you have been sort of a front
By front, I mean that they stand in front of me like a mirror to a wall
I'm looking at myself but I'm not liking me at all
That's me talking to the mirror and not the wall
I've hit a wall

You see, I thought I knew you but you guessed it, I don't
I watch you slide in and slide out
Man, I know what you're all about
And at times, you seem all about
But all you're trying to do is figure me out

You see, you and I might truly be in the same boat
But the difference is one of us stays humble, while the other chooses to boast
So tonight I offer up a toast to you
I hope my words are ringing through like a shot in the dark
I'm standing with the lighter about to spark fire to your dry sense of humor
That's what pen is saying to the paper...

I thought I knew you but the problem is I don't know myself
I think I do but in reality I'm trying to be too cool, for you
I'm running to hide now
I'm running out of time now

If there's one thing I know it's this
I took a shot and missed
I held you tight and kissed all of my chances away
I'm looking upwards to find the words to say
Hmmm... the sky is gray and it's going to pour on us today

I thought I knew you but in the end I don't
I thought I knew you
I thought I
Knew you
New you
I thought
I new
I
But...

Go Time (Obama '09)

2008-12-18T23:51:00.000-08:00

For such a time as this we sit with weighted breath, bated breath
Some tried to wait but they had nothing left
So with their final breath they whispered for change
Now we sit on the cusp of change
Some are ready to light their crosses, bring back their hoods, and fan the flames

I said we sit on the cusp of change we've been down that dark road before and they're going to try to beat us with canes, I said the dying whisper for change
Much like Gandalf, I command the demons of hate to go back from whenst you came
There will be change, whether if it's with a black or white name
This is why we play the game
This game called Democracy
Or deal more crisis you see but when will you all see
If there's never a different face how can we truly test this thing called Democracy

Today I've decided to move my belongings on top of a mountain far away from here
A mountain where streams, rivers, ships, and hopes all draw near
A mountain where there air is so clear, too clear to ever be polluted
The astute find there are no absolutes so they themselves fail
So today I've chosen to set sail rather than run
I'll be the first to circumvent the sun
These words are meant to hit and then cause your thoughts to run

Are you too ashamed to possibly let it be
Maybe you too can't see, blinded by what others consider to be true reality

But me I've moved my belongings to another shore
A shore where color won't matter anymore
A shore that doesn't border these sin-filled, man-made waters
I've been given my marching orders
Looking ahead I see the faces of hatred's sons and daughters
I apologize but I can't sit and drink with you because I've imposed my own Jim Crow
Now it's time for me to go and go I will because I must
As I look around I don't believe it's only one man who's trying to take away "In God We Trust"

One of the greatest nights... EVER!

2008-12-16T00:34:00.000-08:00

All I have to say is...

And so it was...

2008-12-16T00:30:00.000-08:00

Polar Bear

100 watts

2008-12-16T00:25:00.000-08:00

I'm standing here on the corner of love and hate

I'm standing here, hoping that you'll soon show your face

Man, you know how I hate to wait but wait, you're worth the wait

Sometimes I stay up late, with hopes of simply seeing your face

But I still have yet to be blessed with a glimpse

So I attempt to take my own glimpse into the future and all I see

Is the future, clouded but with a light...

I pray you're the one who has flipped the switch...

Little Pencils

2008-12-16T00:24:00.000-08:00

You say, you've never seen me write
Well, I've been writing on your heart-strings now for way too long
You've just been too busy to ever pay me any mind
So I'll continue to write in silence

You say you've never heard me sing
I guess you haven't listened to the wind as blows by your windowsill
Gently whispering your name....

"Hi, welcome to my home, my heart, I'm glad you decided to stop in."

Flash

2008-12-16T00:23:00.000-08:00

It’s complicated, what I’m feeling right now
It’s complicated, what I’d like to say because I don’t know how
There’s this sense of simplicity and complexity all wrapped up into one
There’s no feeling of warmth because the sun has gone off on the run

There’s a melody which I’d like to hum
But I can’t, I can’t…
I can’t put my lips together right now, due to the fact my thoughts are too cold
The words which come to mind are to bold, so I neatly fold them away in order to be used at a later date

I saw you today, I saw you…
Years ago I lost me in order to find you
I’ve searched seemingly, ever corner of the Earth in order to find you
And man, I think I just saw you, damn, I found you…

I’ve been built up, stripped down
My knowledge has been increased only to let me dummy it down
I’ve gone from lookin’ like a mime, only to be turned into a clown
There once was smile on my face but now there only exists some crazy lookin’ frown

If I could do this all over again, I’d sing
I’d sing a tune which would cause the world to tune in
Let this begin or stop
My thoughts they rise and then they drop
A daydreamer who daydreams in the middle of the night
Why fight, my face is now exposed to the light
Bright
Just like the future….

Evading em'

2008-12-16T00:22:00.000-08:00

One glock, tick tock, lookin' down can't stop

Watching time stride by, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye

My thoughts they're cocked bang, bang I've got

Somethin' hot, two shots warm like butter

Aimin' at your dome, no need to utter random stuff

You've said too much bang, bang...

Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye

Mothers cry on blocks wishin' that their fallen seeds would grow

Fathers slang rocks in hopes that their seeds won't know

Some pack rocks, some pack snow

The sun is gone, no more glow

Some pack water, some pack rockets

Even when they take their hands out of their pockets

They can't stop the water or the rockets

Dead on arrival stuffed into the coroner's white zip-locked jackets

Tell me what you see

I see the dead all around me bye, bye, bye, bye

One glock, tick tock, lookin' down can't stop

Watching time stride by, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye

My thoughts they're cocked bang, bang I've got

Somethin' hot, two shots warm like butter

Aimin' at your dome, no need to utter random stuff

You've said too much bang, bang...

Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye

Company Racing 1

2008-09-24T15:41:00.000-07:00

B.L.P.

2008-09-22T14:28:00.000-07:00

"We're here to kick things up a notch"....

2008-09-22T13:52:00.000-07:00

Espacio - "When sound is mixed with flavor"

September 20th marked the launch of one of the freshest jazz-funk groups in all of the Central Valley! It's amazing to think that I almost missed this event just in order to attend another engagement, what a mistake that would have been in the end.

Without too much practice and plenty of moxie to accompany them, these four artist banged out some of the sickest sounds that I've heard in quite a while. Each musician is dope on their own; however, when they are coupled with each other you can immediately taste the flavor with your ears!

The audio is a bit grimy to start off with but just close your eyes and allow yourself to drift...

It's coming...

2008-08-01T14:51:00.000-07:00

B.L.P. Coming for the very first time ever to anywhere! Come out and hear the some of the best poetry Fresno has to offer! Alcohol available for those 21 and over, live music, live DJ's and again... SOME OF THE BEST POETRY IN FRESNO!

Also, you don't want to miss our special guest poet.

He's sure to blow your mind!

FORWARD THIS TO EVERYONE YOU KNOW!!!

Do it... or the leprechauns will get you... and that's gonna get ugly...

Sambo's Silent Footsteps

2008-07-28T17:01:00.000-07:00

Silent footsteps run rampant through my cerebral corridors
They don hats much like those ancient Spanish Conquistadors
They’re mental conquerors, inhabitants of tenements and settlements
Worlds passed over by satellites and man’s delight for space travel, space flight
If we all sat in silence and turned off the lights some would become uncomfortable
This is exactly where I find myself, uncomfortable
Uncomfortable with myself but you see, my lights are on

Silent footsteps sidestep my newest and most expensive alarm
These footsteps make their way up stairs that lead to a view of the world
We all have access to view the world
But so many close their eyes and their views thus become hidden

If I could run away today, I would
If I could run away tomorrow I would
I’d run straight from the suburbs and straight into the woods
I’d build a tree house that could house my thoughts
Both in the sun and in the rain
I’d build a tree house which would house my thoughts and help to feed my brain
I’d build a tree house atop the canopies which would shield me from the rain
It would shield me from the pain

Silent footsteps run rampant throughout the day and the night
But these footsteps can’t reach the place where my thoughts are housed
And where my brain takes to flight…

2008-07-22T23:27:00.000-07:00

Can you say UNCLE...2

2008-06-22T01:12:00.000-07:00

Lost my voice...

2008-06-22T01:04:00.000-07:00

The brink of disaster is where I find myself
I've lost the number to the hotline so I find myself trying to avoid this hot line
In the meantime I ponder how I climbed up this pole
If I lose my grip and let go then I let go of way too much
So I hold on to this pole
It's the only thing that connects my soul too well, that part I don't quite know
But I do know that there's no letting go
I'll just have to sit up here for a bit and hope
I hope someone will find me
I hope someone will find me
I hope someone will find me

Shoot, does anyone know I'm gone...

Pinch me

2008-06-22T01:02:00.000-07:00

The feeling of feeling is really a hidden feeling
So some set out to see if they can see if this feeling is real
Ouch, it's real...

Little Billy

2008-06-22T00:58:00.000-07:00

Equipped with only his mind and a limited amount of time
Little Billy set out to take over the world
So the first girl he saw, he took over
And after his conquest he beat his chest and stated
That he believed in evolution
He meant that a little liquor and not enough commonsense
Allowed him to turn from a wonderer
Into a conquerer of worlds
Not meant for his rule...

Can you say UNCLE...1

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Caleb and Stephen (Tell Tale and G.F.T.D. 1)

2008-06-22T00:00:00.001-07:00

Today was the start of something special here in our city and the funny thing is only two people really know about it at this point. Well, since this is a blog, I might as well blog about this event right. The quick and dirty is we're on the verge of taking simple poetry from downtown to "All Around" ....

Introducing B.L.P., coming to a town near you!

We'll see how many follow the lights...

Freedom...

2008-06-19T16:26:00.001-07:00

What's up Doc

2008-06-19T16:02:00.000-07:00

So this is what it looks like huh... Freakin' Dr. V. !!!!

Moonlit Dreams

2008-06-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Have you ever sat down to take it all in
The beauty of the night?
It's a different world once the sun ventures in
This is when the stars begin to dance and sing
When Orion announces that he is the king
And all the constellations bow down before him in perfect unison

There is a light and it leads me to the waters edge
At the waters edge I fall to my knees and beg for forgiveness
I do so in remembrance of the sins I've committed and still have yet to commit
I fall to my face because I wish to do away with my soul

In the stillness of the night this light it guides my soul
At the verge of letting go and taking my final leap at life
I sit and I begin to observe the moonlight
Its tranquil beauty its steady beam of light
How does it suddenly warm my soul in the middle of the night

All the steps which I have taken are now lost in the cover of the night
I find myself lost under the cover of the moonlight
Perhaps another traveler will soon appear
A traveler who too has been fascinated and hypnotized by the moonlight
So I sit and I stare, over the river, I can see another person sitting quietly there

I'm drawn to your beauty but even soon you too will leave me
And then I'll be forced to go and retreat from the glare of the sun
Forced to retreat from the glares of everyone who now see me sitting at the waters edge
But for now I close my eyes and allow you to warm my soul...

Promo Video...

2008-06-15T00:53:00.000-07:00

Almost there...

2008-06-11T20:11:00.000-07:00

Part of the familia getting ready to do our thing....

Boney "B"...

2008-06-11T20:10:00.004-07:00

Boney probably wondering what in the world has just taken place!

"Howz that tast"!

Two Blessings

2008-06-11T20:10:00.003-07:00

A guy couldn't ask for anything better than these two...!

The Mind of Medina

2008-06-11T20:10:00.001-07:00

The "Engine" behind The Inner Ear...!

( 1 ) Love

My Agent

2008-06-11T20:09:00.002-07:00

"D", I'm taking you up on that whole 10% thing too...

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Producer "YES"

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Stick close, we're on our way...

Got em'

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So, you thought you could hide huh!

Complete

2008-06-11T20:07:00.000-07:00

Say cheese...

Fresyes For Africa Banquet

2008-06-11T20:06:00.000-07:00

Grosper and GFTD 1

There was a lot of positive enegry in the restaurant that afternoon, I guess the world hasn't forgotten about Africa!

Pirated My Ship

2008-06-11T19:54:00.001-07:00

So I’ve jumped out of the sky and I’ve fallen into the sea
I’ve lost all need for simple transparency
It’s me and only me
I’ve become a pirate and now I’m setting minds free
I’ve boarded Amistad and I’m takin’ not requesting that you, "Give us, us free"

The world is...
The world is shrinking, the world is stinking, the world is a filtration system for far too much crap
Go ahead sit back and try to relax
It’s easier said than done when you know your time is come and there’s nothing you can do
Except, accept the playin’ of the music as it draws near to you

"Oh when the saints go marchin’ in, Oh Lord I want to be in that number"
You see I’m not truly a pirate, I’ve just pirated my ship and there has been no rape or murder
No type of proposterous disorder
The lack of order is the technique used throughout the world
So who’s to save us now...

Perhaps the intellectuals and scholars
Nah, we’ll kill them first because their brains will only get in the way
Maybe the rich will save us
Who are we kidding, they’ll sell their young to save their sums
Ah but at last the poor, the poor, they shall save us
Remember the poor because they shall inheirit the Kingdom

Innate within our less than ornate make up
We hold on to things which we cannot control
So I ask you to take a stroll down memory lane and remember what brought you here
It’s all so simple isn’t it

The reason you’ve made it this far is because you wonder
Where this might be going
But in the end you too are a pirate on my ship
Demanding that society wil..."Give us, us free"

Choice, either good or bad... You hold the outcome in your hands

Braille

2008-06-11T19:52:00.000-07:00

When things don't appear to fit right and the only delight

You find is being held tight by someone you like

Remember that the sun must embrace the moonlight

And the moonlight must embrace the daylight

And the rain the wind

And then just then, you'll begin to see it all works just the same

Because your name isn't called today, doesn't mean it won't be called tomorrow

The way we embrace today has a lot to say with how forever will play out

The shouts the cheers, the minutes which will inevitably turn into years

None of this is viable because your heart has been placed on the altar

Which millions have been placed .. that is of course the alter

Not your heart, because only people are placed on our hearts…

Don't close your doors to what you want because your mind is in your hearts place

What a disgrace that would be

Understand me when I say, "You need to embrace the day."

You know so more than I and so you must try, try, try

I sit and watch it all pass by because I no longer care

I'm broken, I'm tattered, my thoughts are all scattered

To how it used to be to embrace both the good and the bad

I'm young and I've forgotten how to feel

So I steal glimpses of love from those around me….

In Search of Tomorrow....

2008-06-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

In search of tomorrow I find today cowering in yesterday's past

Free at last but last of all free

The words and mental exercises which separate me from the rest of this genus

The genus of intellectuals who hang out on street corners asking for another hit

It's never over with when one hits the cold streets and in essence is thrown into the deep

This is when greatness is found

This is when we're noticed, this is when others seem to want to help us the most

Please let's stand together, right now, right here, and let us toast

Let us toast to today cowering in yesterday's past

The sun has cast its shadow on the future

So today I dream in future shadows which will inevitably give way to tomorrow's reality

The true casualties are found, are found lying comatose on the ground

Waiting for someone to revive them

Waiting for someone to breathe the next breath of greatness into their weary minds

So I stand holding my breath, I stand looking, dreaming about how long I have left

Today I dreamed in colors so vivid that God himself hadn't brought names to them yet

So vivid that the blind were able to see and feel the warmth of my dreams

Today a weary sole told me that he too dreamed in Kaleidoscope patterns

He told me that for exercise his brain walked around the rings of Saturn

He told me that he once ruled the world with others like him, like minded men

He told me that today never used to visit yesterday

And that tomorrow was truly married to the future

So it was ok to I dream in future shadows which will inevitably gave way to tomorrow's reality which was in essence is their child

So now I sit and listen for the voices of all of these dreams

But are they all in my mind

Is there a way to unwind all the junk which is bound around ones mind

Intertwined feelings of lust and love

I lust for the chase but I love the mediocrity

There's a sense of hypocrasy which spews out one side of my mouth

It can't come out of both sides right

I'm looking for the light which used to shine so bright

I now see forever standing by a moment who has just opened the door for what if

But what I'm truly seeing are today's tomorrow's wading in yesterday's past

Wondering if forever was just a moment filled with what if's

Forever, something clever that someone came up with who didn't believe in what if's

The world says things like I LOVE YOU FOREVER, I think things like, I hope these words will ring forever

I seek the deaf and the blind in order to drop simple truths inside of their minds

Simple truths delivered through my crooked teeth

But the only relief I seem to find is when I close my eyes and begin to breathe slowly, slowly, slowly

And before I cross over to the other side, I hope to find my tomorrow holding hands with your forever...

Heaven or Hell

2008-06-11T19:40:00.000-07:00

I slipped, fell, and violently hit my on a rock
And it appears as if only a few minutes are all that I've got
So my soul floats between heaven and hell
And my would be thoughts are now left to dwell on a cloud next to Heaven and a pit next to hell
I can smell the golden roses from Heaven and the rotten smell of flesh in hell
And I stand frozen as my soul awaits its fate
Its final boarding papers for its final destination
I should have paid more attention during my Evangelation Explosion orientation
I can now see God and I can vaguely hear satan
The end is near this is what I've been awaitin'
My journey through life was filled with lies and sin
And now my soul is floatin' at Heaven's gates prayin' God will send the message to St. Peter to let me in
I hear a noise but I don't see the gates begin to move open, like I was hopin'
And souls can't break into Heaven because the door is not just left open
Well then again maybe it is
I remember when I was younger my parents would sing
Some song about praising the King
All you have to do is get on your knees and ask him in
And this is where your true freedom begins
With this thought I immediately awoke and I began to fight back the tears as I choked
Far from done I rose to my feet and I wondered to myself
How did I get knocked off of my feet
Then I realized all along God doesn't miss he was aiming at my knees

Middle Ground

2008-06-11T19:38:00.000-07:00

In the middle of the night I gained my sight
I began to fight you see
I was newly cast
I had to grasp that which before I couldn't see
Out of the cold, my mind, body, and soul were exposed to something I can't quite explain
Acid rain, cleansing my battle stains
I felt no pain as those around me cried
My soul had risen but my body had still yet to die
These are the sounds from middle ground
The sounds of both the laughter and the tears
These are the sounds from middle ground
Even after all these years of fear
These are the sounds that play at night when hearts songs are to heavy to bear
These are the sounds of middle ground after all these years
The beat of the drums began to hum as the thunder began to roll
The good and bad were all so sad when I showed up without my soul
Newly cast I had to grasp for something which I didn't know
These are the sounds of middle ground
For all those who don't know
When one is lost and all seems lost there's always one place to go
Listen carefully to the beat of the drum because the thunder's about to roll
And take you straight to the heart of the middle ground because this is the only place to go....

Type or Spell

2008-06-11T18:58:00.000-07:00

I think I'm a calm person for the most part
I can start up conversations with almost anyone, "Hello"....
I find humor in most things
I've learned not to jump when my phone rings or sings for that matter
I trust very few people
Thus I get screwed less than most people
I wonder about things, which I have no control over
I mean, who really reads this stuff
I stuff all my emotions in a file called EMOTION
The cancel EMOTION's tab is hidden too
I mean what would I do if the tab were ever found by another

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I was told that I didn't matter
That my paychecks would never add up and become fatter
My parents taught me how to use a ladder
Because my dreams and wants would always be at the top of the shelf
There are times when I think for myself
No media or friend influences
Just a simple influence, myself
I cannot be rated because even though others try
I simply give them my rating and I tell them to no longer try
I'm second best to the next best thing
When in strong liking my heart begins to sing
I've taken from Handel, Mozart, and Bach and now I'm the King
The secret is, love pulls on one's musical strings

I can't type or spell
My insecurities keep me from telling one and only one simple truth
I can't get loose, I'm stuck
If I were the one driving the truck I'd pull over and get some sleep
Find some relief under the sheets
Isn't it funny how hectic life can get when you're out on the streets
This is so almost complete
The running of feet sounds like the running of eyes
Don't give this one a cry I meant to type try
I can't type
I'm a different type of being
I close my eyes and I start seeing what others don't
Hope; I hope she sees me too, to, two
One, too, to, two,
I'm through.....

I wonder what she sees

2008-06-11T18:54:00.000-07:00

As I observe her smile
I wonder what she sees
I wonder if years from now
She'll play in the trees and her dreams will walk on the clouds
I wonder if her spirit will be shy or cry aloud
I barely know her but I feel so proud

I wonder what her future holds
I wonder what worlds she'll mold with her mind and her mind alone
Thank goodness she'll never be alone
She'll have many homes, filled with many faces
The love shown to her will only make her stronger

I wonder what she sees when she smiles
Does God hold her hand on the daily
Or maybe angels play with her thoughts and help to keep her entertained
Perhaps they gently call out her name

I see the glory of God's grace etched across her face
I see the future in her future
I see a child, who soon will grow into an adult
And then wonder what we see...

Late Night

2008-06-11T18:50:00.000-07:00

I lost my tempo, I lost my rhyme
I get lost every time I try to keep pace
My face has been erased so many times
I can't seem to draw back how it looked during this present time
So in essence I draw a blank

Someone hit rewind, the tape plays forward as I rewind
Fast forward and then reverse
If it all sounds familiar, it has never been rehearsed
It shouldn't sound familiar because I've never kicked this verse

In church I sat naked to the words left by THE FATHER
Why bother to shape myself in the form of something I'm not
The reward is a place too hot, it smells like Hell
So I think I'll skip it
However temptation draws near and I thirst for sin
So I think I'll sip it slowly, don't want to gulp
The end result is I find myself choking on myself

I lost my tempo and I lost my rhyme
I think that my thoughts are one of a kind
My mind has been erased far too many a time
So my thoughts can never seem to draw the line between reality and fiction
My addiction is my own self-affliction
So I afflict myself with thinking less of myself
No help just harm
Ring the alarm another one is dying, frying
I look to my left and then to my right to see who's lying
Who's kickin' junk in my ear

If you want to talk about me I really don't care
Your noise is falling on deaf ears
This is the year when I finally break loose
I'm loose and you can't even walk a step in my boots
They're loose, just like my fingers as I write, type
There's no sense to hype the newbie
If you knew me, you'd feel me
But you don't, so you can't
Everybody together start to chant

"In the end my mind rest with my soul
For all that don't know, this is only a test
I still got miles to go."

- G.F.T.D. 1

Grey

2008-06-11T18:49:00.000-07:00

The words simply fade away
In times of sadness they were easily displayed
The color was grey, the clouds seemingly followed me each and every day
But now I seem to have turned the page
I used to stand at the intersection of happiness and sorrow
All the while wondering about what tomorrow truly holds
The minutes unfold before me, the second hand tick tocks
And its rhythm is starting to bore me
I never had the patience for time
So I threw my time piece away

My body it sways but to a different tune and certainly in a different way
The color is still grey and my thoughts they still stay out at sea
Bury me, out at sea, this is my plea
I'm on bended knee praying that my enemies will find me on bended knee
Take pity on me oh Lord for I have sinned
I stand and I pretend to be something I'm not
Instead of giving all that I've got
I hold on to just enough
My hopes and my dreams
But they're not mine to keep
So I offer them back up to you
What would you do if you could spend a day or two painting in my shoes

Divided

2008-06-10T23:52:00.000-07:00

It appears as if my mind has been separated but not divided

It's so amazing you should try it

Try to piece together real life and fiction

Independency and sudden addiction

There's the confliction the fork in life

Each time I blink I find myself living a different life

Today I saw the sun for the first time

At least that's what I read on the Sun Dial you see

The problem is you don't see so you keep your mind closed to everything around you

Booo, don't be startled, I'm the one that found you

Now my thoughts they hound you

Surround you, like time chasing the elderly

We're all elderly

Stuck under a spell you see

So how do you spell confused

I don't spell, instead I insert words which come pre-spelled

Like racist, bigots, fundamental zealots, greedy, needy, blind

You know those who can't see me but they feel me

My words are like Braille so if you don't like me, don't mic me

Keep feeling around your darkness you soon will learn to part with

Something greater than yourselves, your insecurities

My pyromaniac tendencies often spark brush fires in the driest of minds

A line was drawn the moment you sat down

You told yourselves either you'd be challenged or you'd be entertained by a clown

It's almost over now the challenge was laughable

I'm neither Bozo or Bono

I'm a 5'7 negro, my mind it soars with eagles, the love of my life is Latino

I try to eat less fast food created by Gringo's

For many years I walked through life single

So my band of Asian brothers would take me out to mingle

My soul it tingles, that's the Indian in me

Either Indian or Indian you'll still find me standing at Wounded Knee

The complexity is simple

My words have embedding themselves deep inside of your temple

My tempo is always the same, Steady

I…I…I… was born ready

This is our time, so divided we should stand

Because united we've fallen

The closer we listen, the louder I hear them calling

They're calling our names

They're still crying

They want US to put out the flames of hatred

But these flames still burn across my body as my soul lies here naked

Take this, this is all you can have

You can touch my body but you can't affect my soul

So I take my fallen sister's, brother's, grandfather's, grandmother's, mother's, and father's voices and dreams with me every where I go….

I have them tattooed across my back

But I can't look back because it wasn't me

Or was it me, my soul is crying now

We come from that seed of thrashing and pain

We come from that seed that was thrown out during the rain and asked to take root

So as others drown around me my roots take shape and my knowledge grows

I was dropped off on top of the highest peak

So instead of yelling I whisper

And that's how I've learned to speak

When placed on higher peaks, mountains, and plateau's

Those in the valley below must understand that it's me and a million other souls

Standing separated but not divided

Faceless

2008-06-10T23:47:00.000-07:00

Let's just face it
In the end I wish to remain faceless
The errors of my ways make me want to get a face lift
So I went out and withdrew a bunch of green with big faces
And now I can no longer taste what I deemed the errors of my ways
Because these greens with big faces erased it
Helped me keep pace with the others in this society with the same faces
The faceless...

Now those with the pretty faces
The ones whose shoe laces and bracelets
Are thrown in as bargins and door prizes after their facelifts
These are the people whom I share my air with
The only problem is my darkness scares them
Ensnares them and they pass their hatred down to their next of kin

Well, I'm tired of being faceless
Scared Shi.less
Who is this
Let me confess
I was with you in the beginning when you thought you were all alone
I just remained faceless
Your status carried you by my presence
So now I present my greatest present

I hope you're hungry because soon you'll taste it
Let's face it, your words left a disconnect between my heart and my brain
The darkness was calling my name so I stood in its warm door
All alone, choosing to remain faceless

We share the same name, it's basic
You just turn your heads so you won't have to face it

Hello...

2008-06-10T23:14:00.000-07:00

Let's see how this all works out for us. I'd like to invite you all to join me on an epic journey through time and space. Please feel free to tell me how you "Honestly" feel about my topics!

Peace, love, and light...